running to run

so today i ran. to run. not far. just 6 miles. but it made me remember why i run. and why i like running. why it feels good to be outside and have the air running through your hair. your heart racing. pushing yourself to keep moving forward just because you want to not because you have to.

saturday i ran 11.5. it was hot. and humid and raining. and i did it. because i was supposed to. and because i wanted to. but in a different way.

things have been a struggle lately. not just running but most things. i am not sure what i am doing. not sure what i want to be doing. not sure how to make it all better. i will keep trying to figure it out though as long as i can.