slope

i'm having a randomly difficult time this week motivating. for training. or anything (getting up. working. walking the dog. reading. you name it i probably don't really want to do it). i have a lot of excuses. but none that are very good. most of it has just been life. and part of it has been the down slope of finishing a marathon. portland was great. i had a fantastic time. it was memorable. and i came home energized and ready to tackle anything. but then everything that composes everyday immediately made its way back in. and then some. this past weekend i had a stomach virus. no details necessary. and then my back and right hamstring (yes only right) were sore from deconstructing the garden. and i have been tired. and grumpy. and despising my job. not very conducive to anything. running would of course help all of this. and if i was running all of this would matter significantly less. its a vicious cycle. however on the upside i have probably been a better parent the past few weeks. a bit more present. more doting. more attentive. not sure if spencer appreciates that or if he is ready for me to get on with my training and leave him to his own devices. i am not stressing about training right now though. if i stress i take the fun out of it and defeat the purpose. just need a little motivation. a better perspective. and perhaps someone to run with...

"I carry you with me into the world,
into the smell of rain
& the words that dance between people
& for me, it will always be this way,
walking in the light,
remembering being alive together"
-RIP Tricia (1/26/75-10/21/07) and Jeremy (8/28/78-10/22/07)