shift

i skipped my tuesday run. and worked on my resume. work has been a bit tumultuous. lay offs. and general upheaval with little guidance on what is to come. i have survived unscathed thus far but there is still my general malaise on the entire experience that led me to believe that my time would be better spent updating my resume. and looking for some viable alternatives. apparently employers don't often seek you out to find a new job you will thoroughly enjoy. who knew? i felt great after my run on saturday. 17 miles and my body was ready for it. my hip is definitely adjusting well. new shoes are worked into the rotation. all is flowing well. or at least it was until this week hit. and then gears shifted.

i am grumpy though. and tense. there are so many things racing through my head. i can feel my muscles tightening and my jaw grinding. i need to run. i want to run. but i don't feel like getting up and doing it. sounds weird given what i just said i know. sometimes those first few steps are the hardest ones though...