the only things that matter

this year has been interesting. filled with trials. tribulations. triumph. disappointments. love. and hope. i made goals. i had expectations. and some of them were perhaps unrealistic. but maybe only because i had no real control over them. i thought i did. but in actuality there is only so much we can do. and only so much we are able to impose our will on. all i wished for and all i wanted were not enough. so plan a. and plan b. ultimately failed. but they lead to plan c. something that i finally had complete control over. myself. i could run. and i could run far. i knew how to do that. i know how to do that. so i ran another marathon. in portland. and i did okay. i was able to come to think about things in an entirely different way. and see my life in a new dimension. 2009 was trying. but good. i have a fantastic family. and i am here. and through it all i managed to run an average of 2.1 miles a day. there are still opportunities in front of me. and i am surrounded by love. for 2010 i am posed for the future. ready to take on whatever may come. with spencer and meredith beside me. best wishes for everyone in the year to come.