effortless

running has never been completely easy to me. most things aren't actually. and that is okay. i don't mind working for things. but i can honestly say that i envy people for whom things are seemingly effortless...especially runners. this morning i ran. and it wasn't effortless. especially the first few miles. this past week was a bit lazy for me. i ran on monday and then nothing since. i meant to run a few times but it never happened. i haven't been sleeping very well and i am just plain tired. but this morning i woke up with the intention of running for a bit. no set miles. no set pace. just a run. for the sake of running. it was a lovely morning. about 15 degrees and sunny. and i ran. the first three miles were nothing to write home about and i considered turning back. and without an agenda those things are allowable but i knew if i pushed on i would also appreciate it more. so i did. there were very few people out. and around mile 4 it all seemed to click. and about then i started to see other runners. faster runners...which isn't hard. sometimes i hate it. and other times i appreciate it. there is something about seeing people who have a raw talent that i envy. and it helps when the runners are friendly...i think when i run it looks like molasses is running through my veins. and at times it feels like it. but then other times i feel like i am getting somewhere. and i am improving. regardless i love it.

today i ran. and i kept running. and then i turned around when i felt like it. and i ran back. no agenda. no plan. and it was good. and when i finally checked it was 10.57 miles. (and even at a decent pace for me). and that's when i am reminded that not having a schedule can definitely be a good thing. perhaps my "nebulous marathon schedule i created on friday is not necessary...

spent the rest of the day in consumer excess with spencer. and then building legos. surprisingly, neither of those was effortless either.