hesitancy

since the whole smash and grab last week i have been a bit hesitant to run outside. my piece of mind has been - well - disturbed. and maybe i was a bit too easy going about how i left things in my car. maybe i did just assume the best. and think that people were good. and would not steal things. and won't violate my space. i know i made some improper judgments. i realize now that i should have been more cautious. but all that aside i am hesitant to run outside. this week had a few gorgeous days. days i should have left work and been outside. but then what. leave things in my car? no more. can't do it. go home first? and then do what with my boy? too many contingencies. i feel like i am running in circles. and i hate the feeling of violation. i know it will dissipate with time but right now it is too raw. and so i wait. and wonder what to do. of course running with all of my accouterments on me is always an option...just not an attractive one.