remember when i used to run

so it has been over six months since i have run. some days it seems like forever. initially i was worn out all the time. but the past two months or so i have more energy. and i miss running. the little wigglers are growing well and we are excited to welcome them in a few more months. i know that not running was in their best interest but i must say it feels so odd. i am steadily gaining weight to support the two little humans and that has been hard to wrap my head around as well. weighing more than i ever have in my life. as much as you can know this is what is best it is still hard. pre-pregnancy i was probably in the best shape i have ever been in my life. and i'm sure that contributed to things going so well. but now it is like it is slipping away. i am trying to contemplate races in the future and wondering how i am ever possibly going to get back to where i was. i get winded walking a few miles. and i'm not sure the wigglers believe that i am a runner. i am already planning to set them up by the treadmill in their bouncy seats so they can watch me run. should be fun for all.