if it ain't broke...

well it kinda is broken. my knee cap that is. not even a good story to accompany it. was hanging on a bar in the bathroom trying to get it down. it came down. and so did i. needless to say i will not be running for a bit. *sigh* this could take a while. frustrating but not much i can do about it. luckily the knee cap isn't weight bearing so i can stand. and chase around the wigglers relatively well. supposed to be on crutches but honestly i haven't been using them. it's too difficult to do in the house. and with the babies. this might complicate the rehab a bit. but it is what it is. trip to memphis for december marathon is cancelled. boo. there is always next year.

refocusing

the past few months have all blurred together. the edges aren't clear. too much overlap. not enough focus. but i suppose that is what happens with sleep deprivation. and days filled with feedings and diapers and naps. times 2. it has been amazing. and exhausting. but i have been able to run. almost daily. until i hurt my knee the end of august. and i was knocked out for a bit. three runs in five weeks followed by the 10 miler last weekend. did i run fast? no. do i ever? no. but it still felt good. and consistent. i made it out there and i ran. nine months after having twins. so now here i am. 8 weeks until a marathon. not entirely sure what i was thinking. but i guess i need to run. i want to run. i get to run. just need to get up and run. one foot in front of the other. that can't be so bad...